What is normal? (am i normal)?

Like i cant controll myself. I mean i never was weird just veary energetic and had alot of friends. But now im all like ****** up. My perception is soooo off and i just want to run around and do things. I have alot of pride in myself, and selfesteem so its not that i dont have any friends its just i dont want them. im veay independent. My life is sooo compicated and i get stressed out so eaisly. so yeah basicly im a really fed up person because i was bullied by some kids real bad. im getting help for it. Im suuchhh a *****. so yeah i mean am i weird, like can you diognose it or something. i can act normal i just feel like its so harddd. i think its called being cute. like ill sit in in the gr and play with the flowers. and rat my hair (im pretty) lol and yeah. and also i think the reason why i feel so lonely is because i do really have friends its just i dont talk to them at all, like i dont like them. their not like loosers or anything. real popular. its just i flunked a year in like the 4rth grade so now im really really miture and theese little kids like kinda annoy me. believe me i love being around all the kids at my school. just i feel like so different because im tall and theyr all small lol. i feel vaery attracted to highschool kids, and men too. yummy lol. i cant i feel really hurt when people say like mean things because im to senstitive to it. i like guys because i need domonice or however you spell it because i cant controll myself emotionally. My life dosent suck at all. its great. i just feel so different. and i dont know why because im soo normal. my thinking is whats ****** up. but whatever i mean.i donttt knoww. mmmm so yeah would you date me. or hate me lol. and ohh wow i messed up on the spelling thing like 35 times lol!