What should I do????

I grew up as an abused child by my nanny. And as I grew up I developed a terrible stutter. So one day my dad, the king, died. I was so sad and it made my stutter worse. By then I had a tutor who was wonderful at helping my stutter. We were very close(no ) kinda like bros. So when my dad died my brother became the king and I wanted him to be the king because if I became the king I would enbarras my people with my stutter. So my brother went to america with his wife because he loved her very much so they married and went to america. I became the king now?!? WAT SHOULD I DO ??????